who would never, ever leave her baby in the car
But I did.
Today.
30 min.
Sad.
I want to throw up, lock myself in the closet, hold my baby, cry.
My sweet boy is fine.
Luckily it wasn't to hot. He was mad, probably crying the whole time.
I am that mom.
I thought there was never, ever, ever anyway that I could ever to that.
NEVER.
Not me.
But I did.
I just keep imagining how bad it could have been. What if was really hot. Babies die in less than 30 min when its hot. I am SOOOOOO mad at myself. Why did I not notice he wasn't with me. How did I not unload him from the car. Why did it feel normal to have empty arms. I have not gotten out of my car with empty arms in 5 years!!! Why did I do it today! I just DON'T know how I could have done that.
I am so thankful he is okay. Thankful it wasn't hot. Thankful that this tiny boy forgives so easily. 2 seconds after I got him out of the car he was smiling and cooing at me, just like nothing had happened. Thankful he is too little to ever remember that his mom could do such a thing.
I am that mom.
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5 comments:
You need to forgive yourself. One thing I've learned about being a Mom is to never say never. We NEVER know what is going to happen. Bottom line: Everybody is fine. (((HUGS)))
I'm so glad he's okay! Poor Chelsea - you'll carry that guilt forever! Don't let it stress you - he's fine, thankfully! Where were you when you left him? How did you finally figure it out? In the end, you do have a great story to tell!
It worked out okay. Just forget about it... easier said than done, but he's okay and you ARE a good mom. :) I'm so sorry that happened though, but so glad he's just fine.
I remember being so mad at myself for not buckling Calvin in his seat and driving home from somewhere. He was in his seat and had a blanket over him and I thought he was buckled and when I got home and took him out I couldn't believe it. Don't be too hard on yourself. We all have so much going on all the time, everyone does something like that.
the day of camdens blessing we left him in the car too.. about 10 minutes later someone was asking where the baby was.. we had all come back to the house for lunch.. we were all so busy with food/parking that we had forgotten our little bundle..
glad it wasnt hot :)
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